I began to realise something was wrong but I didn’t know what to do I was scared of speaking to anyone, I thought it would make things worse I needed help. I first met him when I was 17. I felt lucky
to have an older guy. He was perfect: romantic, sweet and kind. Fit too. Everything you’d want in a boyfriend really. I couldn’t tell when it changed exactly.
But the relationship became a cycle of screaming and shouting, and then lots of ‘sorrys’
and romance after. He stopped me from speaking to my family or
friends. He convinced me I didn’t need them. He even made me give up college. I couldn’t
go anywhere without him. [phone message tone] “Hi, what are you up to?” Who is this? Who is it? Tell me! [chopping sound] He said I did everything wrong. He said I
was useless. I started to believe him. He said one day everyone would see how pointless I was one day. [chopping sound] People ask me why I didn’t leave. I was
scared. I felt embarrassed. I kept hoping that things would change. Just get better. When you’re isolated and you’ve lost control Courage is something that leaves you. [sound of heavy breathing] [sound of running down stairs] [sound of attempting to open a locked door] I began to realise something was wrong but I didn’t know what to do. I was scared of speaking to anyone. I thought
it would make things worse. [crying] [door opens] [door shuts] I needed help.