Hello! Praise God! Thank You, God! Thank You!
Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! Thank You! Oh my goodness! Get excited about being here
today and join in this show because we have a great guest coming up in just a few minutes.
Today is part two of alcoholism. We are just taking going through addictions. Today this
guest happens to have hit the gamut on everythingůand has overcome. You have got to stay tuned for
all of that. I want to do some shout outs before we get
started today. To Rebecca Sirel in New Jersey! We have been praying for that part of the
country with the hurricane and all of the things going on up there. Praise God for you!
You have been so faithful in this message and living this out for God. Crystal Bradley
in Texasůdown twenty-five! Look at you! Look at you! Since the beginning of August. Carolyn
Botts in Maryland has lost fifty pounds and praising God for this message and support
of the Saints. Praise God for Facebook. Then there is Christine Bales in Ohio. Now get
this one. Down ninety-two pounds and still going. Praise God for all you guys! A special
hello and shout out to all of y’all! Isn’t that exciting? It never ceases to be exciting
to hear about another Saint’s connection with God and then getting this and getting all
their weight off. We are just going to jump in and dive in today
on part two of alcoholism. I want to bring up Candace, our co-host and Vicki Johnston,
our special guest. Let’s give them a hand! Praise God for them! Praise God! Love you
Vicki! I am so glad you have joined us. Let’s have a seat and just jump on in to this on
this gorgeous fall day. We have had beautiful weather here but I do want to again send out
our thoughts and our prayers to everyone in the northeast now after one of the most devastating
weather events – widespread too – in a long, long time. Let us know if there is anything
we can do from this end. We are just praying for all you guys.
We have been talking about addictions and I know that last week we went back overůwas
it alcohol last week too? And then tobacco before that?
Yes. Today we are going to go over a little bit
of everything today. Right, Vicki? Okay? Why don’t you go ahead and get started on your
testimony? Well, I started with illicit drug and alcohol
and cigarette abuse really at the age of thirteen and continued on until I was thirty. I almost
died of alcohol poison while I was a junior in high school. Honestly went on to see others
in an overdose type of situation on drugsůclose to death. Willing to walk awayů
All during the high school time? And even after. So it was very hard core from
the very beginning. And you were saying that your parentsůthey
were well-to-doů.that that was not it. It was more staying at home. You said lonelinessů
I was lonely and just really looking to want to fit in. They did not really have a problem
with alcohol or anything but generational maybe did not know a whole lot about my family’s
size. They were long distant family so I was not super close to them. On my family’s side.
Went on years and years of that of torture and torment and anger and hopelessness and
just honestly wanting to die really young. Bless your heart!
I can remember in high school just wanting to end it all all the time. Did not know what
to do with any of that or where to turn or where to go. Just continued onůI do not know
really how I survived. I do not know howů You got married, I guess, at some point?
Yes ma’am. I married atůwow it has been eighteen years. I guess around twenty-three or somewhere
in there we married. That was meeting in a bar and going to the kind of barsůbeing the
well-to-doůjust the drug and alcohol abuseůit was very scary that it would come from that
kind of background. Then I would end up living in a shack or we would go to the bars that
they would say to us, “You must not be from around these parts because you still have
all your teeth!” It got very ugly. Very, very ugly. Honestly, at thirty I was so hopeless.
We were a one-income family. I did get the privilege of getting to stay home with my
son when he was born. So he must have been around two at the time. I was very scared,
Gwen. I was very, very angry with a two-year old child. With a two-year old innocent child.
It really scared me to death that I could be so angry with him. Very, very hopeless
still. I knew that there was a problem and I would kind of mention my problems along
the way. Even in high school, I felt like I needed to see a psychiatrist. I just knew
that I wanted to die. Something was wrong. You did not know how
to fix it. Right! So just to even mention it to family
because nobody knew how to deal with that. It just was really ignored. Just did not know
where to turn or where to go. It even came to a point in marriageůthe one-income family
not being able to afford to go to any kind of counseling or go anywhere and so I really
got to that place of being so sick of suffering that I really felt done with sin and I started
crying out to God. I did not have religion or anything in my life or a church upbringing.
I started crying out to God just because I was so miserable and so hopeless and every
night I would just go, “God, please, please just do not let me drink and smoke tomorrow.”
Then the next day would come and I would be doing the same thing and every night I was
just going to bed miserableůcrying myself to sleep. I was always praying and would end
my prayers, “Thank You, God! I love you! Amen.” I felt like I was praying that prayer for
about two months, when one particular night right when I said, “I love You” from my head
to my toe I just had this feelingů You could feel it! I know it!
Yes! I remember “There is a God!” and the very next night, the very, very next night
when I said “I love You” I got the same feeling again. It was incredible. It was just overnight
like “Wow!” I just felt like I should go to church. There is a God and what should I do
now. There is a God. I should go to church. That is all we know. Okay. God. Church. God.
Yes. And I knew I neededůwas thinking help. I
wanted help. I wanted to change. I desperately needed to change. I was dying and everything
around me was falling apart. And so, I went to church for a time and I learned this word
fellowship which I had never in my life heard before. I had never heard that word. So I
just started praying to God, “Please would You find a fellowship that would be right
for me.” After about ten months of going to church, my lifeůI kind of laid down the drinking
and different thingsůmy life kind of felt like maybe how I thought it should, but then
we were back to our old behavior and that was very scaryůjust having a child in the
car and having alcohol with us needing to pull over and be sickůjust different awful
things. So going to church I learned this word “fellowship”, cried out to God, and then
I discovered going back to that same behavior, I’m like, “I need more help. Church is not
happening. I am back to my old behaviors.” So then I discovered that my husband’s insurance
for treatment was one hundred percent free and I thought, “Well, it’s free.”
What else is out there? Professional help. Right. I remember going to my husband at the
time and just saying, “I am not asking you. I am telling you. I have to get help. I have
to go to treatment.” That was not fun or pleasant for anybody. Close familyůhusband. I was
admitting I had a problem. Nobody else wants to admit that. It is not easy. Even asking
family to come to the meetings at AAůmy treatment. Can you come to those? They did not want to.
They didůbut nobody wanted to. Is that not interesting? Just to pause there.
So much of what is going through my head, even last night, is I was just praying about
addictions and stuff and actually just wasůthoughts were pouring out. So much about conviction.
It is not only so hard for us, but the whole world does not want you to be wrong. The whole
world. Even the churches. “Oh but you are so good at something else. Do not be so hard
on yourself.” Just blaming everythingůthe forces that say, “We are not wrong.” are enormous.
You have to wake up to what you are up against. If you are ever going to overcome, you have
to wake up to it. What happened at that point? So professional services?
Yes. Went through treatment and truly all along it was just this heart from that experience
of God touching me in that way. It truly was just seeking Himůwanting His will not mine.
Your will not mine be done. It was all you knew to do.
It was all I knew to do. I would go to treatment and I was actually three months in to AA,
when I realized that I had a problem with food. I remember eating a box of cheez-its
and calling my sponsor and just like “NO!!! I am filling up on food just like I did with
alcohol.” Well, at that time some people were going to Overeaters Anonymous and they were
having pretty good success. I thought, “I have to lay down this drinking first. So if
I can stay sober for one year, then maybe I will look at Overeaters Anonymous.” So I
didůjust two weeks after my one-year sobriety birthday, I stepped into Overeaters Anonymous
and just began working the steps there and the steps in AA. I was going to meetings.
I was in this state of desperation. So I felt like, “Please, just tell me what to do and
I will do it.” So He kind of put you in a boxůor allowed
you the box area to start with. So you were boxed off and what was eliminated from your
life? What did they have you eliminate? Definitely the alcohol. But in OA, it was
sugar and flour. Sugar and flour.
It was called abstinence. Abstaining from certain foods.
Okay. Let me just say right hereůthat is my sustenance for the dayůis bread and always
a little bit of sugar in there too from time to time. So that would…how about you? I
would shrivel up and be down to nothing I think.
I had to google this morning. What foods are there outside of flour and sugar? No, I am
just kidding! But you are right! Food groupůBread! Then
there are things you put on the bread. Peanut butter or some fruit jelly. I meanůbread.
I was very unhappy. You could not have felt good.
I turned orange! I have no doubt!
Because I ate so many carrots. I have no doubt!
My hair was falling out. Hypercarotenemia. I know about that. That
is actually dangerous after a certain point. Soy milk every day.
I am so sorry. I praise God!
So finally a Savior came. Yes. Yes.
The man-made rulesůhow did you feel during the man-made rules?
I was very angry. Very angry because during that time it was very much aboutůyou could
not eat certain things. I had to look in the first five ingredients of pretty much anything
to see if there was sugar and flour in it. So I was grocery shopping with my son and
I was like, “Do not talk to me! I have got to figure out if I can have this food or not.”
It was terrible. It is a weird religion, isn’t it? Where everything
is to blame and you are being upright and righteous is not even about loving that child.
You have got to make sure you are either an exercise-aholic or you have got to make sure
those ingredients are in there. You have got to read this and read that. It has its own
form of feeling self-right about it. You have the right to be ugly or whateverůangry. The
anger is building up because it is a man-made rule. So down underneath, you are not healed
but you are boxed in. Did you ever diet, Candace? I did a few thousand diets. I actually went
to one OA meeting I remember and they were like, “Write down all your red food flags.
All those foods that you eat that make you go off the deep end.” And so I wrote them
down and then they go, “Now those are the ones you cannot for the rest of your life!”
I was like thisů”AAAAHHH! Don’t call me! I’ll call you!” I think I am going to keep
searching. No peanut butter? I just felt too weak, honestly, to do that kind ofůI was
just like, “I do not think I can do that.” I did not know you could have the Spirit of
God like you taught us in Weigh Down that would tell you that you could say no to yourself.
I did not know how you were ever going to say no to yourself if it was not a barůa
prison. You taught us that so beautifully in the classes. How to say no and not only
do you teach us how to say no but you inspire us to say no. I cannot wait to get to that
test so I can go, “Oh no. I am not hungry.” Like you said, it totally reverses. Your fun
is going to reverse. Where your fun used to be binging out or focusing on this and now
the fun is going to be doing God’s will and saying no. I giggle about it but I do remember
like her, searching and searching and searching and searching for the right answer. There
is a lot out there. So how many years were you caught up in that?
Six years in AA and five years in Overeaters Anonymous.
Simultaneously or was it additional? Simultaneously.
So around six total of that type ofů Yes. So what happened with being boxed in
with those man-made rules and being so angryůthen my relationships were struggling. I was not
making sense of laying some things down that I really thought my life should get better.
Yet my relationships wereů You did not have time for them!
Right. Right. Searching through the lists of what has got
flour in it! That’s right. That’s right. So then I cried
out to God again, I was just like, “God, what do we do?” My relationship with my son when
he was only nine years old felt so strained and torn. “God, what do we do about Kyle.”
Honestly, my husband and I fasted a day together and we just cried out to God, “What are we
going to do about Kyle? We need help with our son! What are we going to do?” About a
month later, I was homeschooling at the time and I opened up this book for mom’s rest and
relaxation. How to take care of yourself as a homeschooling mom. Read the Weigh Down Diet
book and visit the Weigh Down website. Very good! Good homeschool group there!
I jumped off the couch and I went to the website and when I saw a class called the Change Series
I felt very excited about that because I had changed some in those anonymous programs but
I was excited to change more and I knew it was needed. The anger scared me still. We
were a one-income family and again kind of felt like I was not sure how was I going to
afford a class. Did not even know what a class was going to cost. But my husband had come
home from work that day and he gave me $125 cash and he said, “This is just for you. This
isn’t for groceries or bills. Just anything you would like to spend some money on.” And
I thoughtůI knew that I jumped into things quickly and again I wanted just to seek God
more and make sure it was the way He wanted me to go and so I took a walk that day and
I slept on it and I got up the next morning and I calledůwell, I can just see how much
a class would cost. I called and they said, “That’s going to be $125.” The exact amount.
That is amazing! Our God is so totally coordinated. Totally, totally just specificůif people
only knew how real He was, they would all be spending all day long trying to find Himůif
they really understood how personal and anxious He was to meet our needs.
If I could justůjust more answered prayer in way of smoking for over twenty years along
with all of that then come into a place again and just learning everything that you teach
us and that is going to God for everything and then even learning this whole the victim
scenario. I look back and all that time that I smoked and I really was such a victim. I
would alwaysůthe whole time I smoked, I was trying to quit smokingůlike I know others
have mentioned beforeůyou know I really was. I had the patch marks and was smoking. Every
time I tried to quit smoking, I would always tell anybody and everybody, “Oh, I am going
to quit smoking.” And then two days later they would see me smoking. Oh poor me! Here
I am smoking again. Just this victim. I cannot do it. I cannot lay it down. When I finally
quit, it became just between God and I. I just cried out to Him and just prayed, “Would
you please take these cravings away? Could you make it easy? Could you make it easy and
take the cravings away?” I just prayed thatůthat was it really. But I did not tell a soul.
I did not tell anybody I was quitting. I just kept it between God and I. And literally,
I have just never gone back and that was probably twelveůthirteen years ago. But just seeing
thatůjust between God and I and how special that it can be. To have that kind of relationship
and to know that He has done it all. So when you found Weigh Down, you started
finding this relationship with God and sort of just shedů
Yes. I have to sayůtaking my first class and just believedůit all making so much sense
and believing then going back after five years with no sugar and flour. The first thing I
had was an Eggo waffle with syrup. Good for you! Having some faith! Did you gain
weight? No ma’am! That is the beauty! I went back
to eating sugar and flour and I lost weight. Amen! God’s way! I love You, God! I love You!
I love You! I love You! I love You! So then I owe it all to Rise Aboveůjust how
you explained it and laid it all out in Rise Above.
It’s all God. The whole section in there on addictions and
not being true and there is nothing inherently wrong with these different things. I was applying
that with food then it came to a point where God changing my heart and being in that homework
and starting to realize God is showing me and you are showing me that there is nothing
inherently wrong with alcohol. It is about our heart and it is about greed and overconsumption
and if I can do this with the food, it seemed like it would make the same sense with the
alcohol. So after that many years of no alcohol since learning this and applying everything
from these classes, we have enjoyed wine and alcohol now and have for six years.
Flour, sugar, and a little bit of wine. How about that? And you are thinner than ever!
Thinner and best health and yeah. It is amazing. It is. It is a miracle.
It is a miracle to finally learn that it is not the alcohol. Candace, I know you were
in a situationůI remember your home life was exposed to alcohol.
Yes. My fatherůhe just drank pretty much all my life. I was telling Gwen before we
started, he was just unavailableůjust unavailable. Every night. He had a little spot he would
go to in the house. So if you came and asked him any questions you would just get thisůjust
that hand. That did end up killing himůthe alcohol.
I am so so sorry. I had someone come up to me at the last show saying that they had a
relative who had been drinking since they wereůstarted at thirteen but really got heavy
and stayed heavy and died at forty-seven from the drinking. So all of those symptoms that
we were talking about…and you were saying that there was lot of ugly. I know Candace
you were saying as a parent you did not reallyůyour parents were gone in the sense that a parent
was thereůa parent can be thereů And be totally goneů
And just have no interest. And as a child you will find another avenue
to get your answers, and to get your fellowship, and to get your friends, but I was also very
embarrassed to bring people home because my dad…when you drink you do not clean up after
yourself. I remember I was in this high school sorority and they were like, “Let’s have the
meeting over at your house.” And I was like, “Ummmůyou knowůuhů” and I kind of got out
of that. Because our house was inůwhen I lived with my mother before my mother passed
away she was very clean and very sociable and then it was just a little bit of a shock
to the system. I do mourn of what he missed that he never found this message and all the
time he missed out with his grandchildren and with us. But just as a warningůwhere
he was a drinker for a long time and when I got older he stopped drinking every night
but he would have binge drinks. Eventually, that binge drink took his life. Even though
he had been drinking for forty years or whatever and been able toůhe was alive and managed
it and went through several marriages and then professionally, he was an attorney and
a judge. Professionally they knew that he had some problems. I think he kind of thought
he had it licked because it was only every once in awhile he would lose control. Obviously,
it just takes one night. Of doing it wrong. So we have seen the devastation
of it when it is abused. It was never to be abused. These kids out there now are doing
all kind of wild stuff with vodka and people trying to get it in their system and stuff.
It is just like say you tried drugs and all that to get rid of the pain. It is all there
to get rid of the pain, or to cover up, use up time. Time seems to move more quicklyůpeople
may think. But it is the wrong spirit. It is the wrong spirit to put in you.
Back to this major point for today, I feel like, is again trying to breakthrough to all
the listening audience out there from around the world that I know we talk about God and
you say, “Well, church.” But if you are getting no support at church or there is no real conviction
and you are not able to keep your convictionůor the conviction is and you are convinced that
it is the sugarůit is the flour or it is some missing ingredient in the food. You have
got to eat this concoction or it is the alcohol or whatever. The evil is out there. Then you
cannot have it both ways. You cannot sit there and say, “Oh, the evil is out there and the
evil is in here.” It takes way too muchůI guess there is too much to rob you of bringing
it home. Therefore you lose a little bit and you gain it back in Weigh Down. You lose a
little bit but you gain it back. Even in Weigh Down, if you do not stay in the Truth or stay
in and welcome that conviction. If you go to professional programs that do not bring
God into it, then they may talk about some things that make you feel convicted not to
do it but it does notůthe true conviction is going to be a love for God. It is going
to boil down to a love for God to be able to keep that conviction and so you get to
the point where you are just making excuses. So you cannot go all the way because you are
over there not blaming yourself but blaming the food and getting angrier because it is
not going away. The anger has got to be addressed. That anger lets you know that the fruit of
the Spiritůboth of them areůpeople use AA as their church so to speak. So they are both
religious but they are not capable of relaying that relationship with God because they are
blaming the wrong thing. And there is only one way to get God.
And if I could speak on thatů Yes, please.
In AA how scary it is basically just to pick whatever higher power, whatever God you want,
and I even heard it could be a doorknob. I mean what kind of relationship can you get
from a doorknob and how can it give anything back? How can you get an answered prayer from
a doorknob? Scary. There are a lot of different gods in there
so you really cannot talk about God because it would be offensive. So you have to stay
on the flour and the sugar and the products and the alcohol or whatever it is.
The problems at home. Making sure it is out of your house. Making
sure you are not going to that particularůdown that street that goes to that bar. Some of
those ideas are fine when you are wanting to change just to get away from it, but at
the same time to get closer to God. You are making a transfer. But at the same time it
is still not gettingůit is like saying that the rest of your life you are going to have
this disease. You have a disease and that you cannot overcome. I will tell you it is
a lifelong religious debate. A lifelong religious debate. I was up in the night last night and
just got on to reading some ancient debates. It has been debated from the beginning. There
is a humongous majority of people who just overwhelmingly shut down anyone who says you
can take on personal responsibility and change. There is the age old freedom of the will/bondage
of the will to the point where you can hardly find literature out there of people who write.
It worries me what will happen if I die or whatever. All that literature could get closed
down. People close it down anyway. The Bible is sitting right there but they do not open
it to see. If you open it as a way to get knowledge, knowledge puffs up, then you open
it to show you what you are doing wrong you have got two different things going on. And
one is completely useless as in Colossians 2. “Since you died with Christ to the basic principles
of this world, why, as though you still belonged to it, do you submit to its rules: ôDo not
handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!ö? These are all destined to perish with use, because
they are based on human commands and teachings. Such regulations indeed have an appearance
of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment
of the bodyů.” (Colossians 2:20-23) You were sick. I was sick dieting. It makes
you sick. They lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence. What do you do? You go
to the next chapter. You go to Colossians chapter three. What is it going to say? Put
to death therefore whatever belongsůOkay. So God is saying put it to death and the religious
worldůthe huge argument that was slammed down on me when the church started and when
everything came down. It was that argumentůthat you cannot lay it down. The fact is is that
“put it to death therefore whatever belong to your earthly nature” means you can do it
now. Today could be your last day. Today could be your last day to ever, everůyou could
walk away from the tobacco, from the drugs, from the overeating, from the alcohol. You
could walk away. That means there is a good God out there but the world says you cannotůyou
are always going to be in bondage. You are living proof.
I am very honored to say, “Yes you can! Yes you can be free.” It is from everything that
I have been able to learn here and looking in. It has been amazing to look in and that
scripture you are referring to changed my life. That was where I was at in my life.
Reading that made everything make sense. Everything! It was just everything.
Looking inůif somebody asked you, “What is Remnant Fellowship? What is Weigh Down?” It
is true religion where you look in and that means no judgmentalness. If you are in the
process of judging, you cannot look in and therefore you have missed another half day
or a day or a week or a year. As weird as it may seem, when you go to the wrong fellowshipůwhen
you go to an AA versus a true religion, you are basically the person that is just constantly
looking out. Constantly looking out and you are judging and that is why they have you
diet because you get to judge the food. Because it really is not right to go in there and
judge all your brothers and sisters in Christ but they give you something to judge where
it is okay to judge it. So you judge the flour, you judge the sugar, you judge the blue cheese
dressing, you judge the alcohol. You become a judger. You become this person that is constantly
judging. And then when you come into Remnant, you make it or break it on this point. That
if you stop the judging, then you can look in. But if you keep the judging up, you have
got one foot in and one foot out and you will be swept away into the world of judgment and
you will never come back home. If you stop the judging, if you stop judging, then the
next thing you know, and you use itůif you clean up that house and clean up that house
of judgment you do not leave it empty. You go back in there with your eyes and look inward.
And you spend the rest of your life cleaning that little part of the heart, and cleaning
that little part of the heart, and cleaning up that conversation, and cleaning up this
and that, and this and that, and you justůyou crave it like food. You crave it like alcohol
you maybe craved at one time or overeating or it is a deep crave inside of you. And you
do not like conversations that take you off of it and you want conversations that take
you there. You want sermons that take you there. You want a lifestyle that takes you
there. You do not even want to hear anything but that. You are just like, “Oh wait! What
did you say? Say it again. Let me write that down.” You will find yourself typing it, writing
it down, and getting to a point where it is so sweet, and so yummy, and so satisfying,
and so rewarding that you long for that position. You long for getting up and allowing that
Holy Spirit to convict. You long for your knees. You long for the Word. You long for
Truthstream or anything. It is such a rarity to findůI mean I was looking for it. I would
have gone anywhere if I could have found some place that was feeding
me conviction. I just could not as hard as I looked I could not find it and so people
do not know why they cannot change and they do not know what is wrong with them and so
they are angry. And nowhere is saying that we are living the
life for the life to come. Nowhere is saying that. And that really too is what has been
so life changing for me. I love how you just taught us that this life is a seventy year
test and you know doctors have to go to college and why wouldn’t we have to be tested for
that life to come. Just to have that to hang on to and know and have that relationship
in that way because really walking through all that and coming out of those different
thingsůthey were just the praise of man. I lost a lot of friends coming out of the
AA. Peopleůworking with peopleůsponsoring people. Thinking “I just think you’re a guru
now.” But it did not matter to me because I just came to that point of just wanting
approval from God. I just could not worry or think about what others thought of me or
the direction I was going because God was making it very clear for me the way He was
wanting me to go. I praise God for that. Even back to doing little things and knowing I
was on the right path or the right track just going back to work and getting under authority.
Going back to work. Going into work one day and there are some martini glasses sitting
there and this little sign, “Free to good home”. We had gotten all of those things out
of our house. We did not have anything like that and we really were not martini drinkers.
But here we got these glasses and I just knew it was from God. And then a month later this
same job my boss comes to me and he says, “You know I got this Skyy vodka at Christmas
last year and it has just been in my drawer and I just do not want it. I want you to have
it.” It just felt like things like that it felt like God was saying, “You are on the
right path. You are doing the right thing.” If I could just alsoůthrough life of that
and never doing well and never caring about anything and wanting to die and not having
good gradesůjust God’s provisions through a life of obedience and living out everything
you teachůthe provisions have been incredible the way He has provided. I just wanted to
say doing terrible in school and then really frying my brain for many years just the way
He has provided. I just pray it gives Him all the glory. It still keeps me in awe that
I have provided a job and working at the fourth largest insurance brokerage firm in the world
doing this accounting job. He has restored everything, hasn’t He?
It just blows me away. It just blows me away. I just cannot believe that after a life like
thatů That God has grace to give us a second chance.
Yes. And it is all through love.
Oh my gosh! I was poor in spirit. I was thinking on the way here I was so poor in spirit. But
I do feel like from this message and this ministry, I now get to be rich in love. It
always just felt to me like winning the lottery of love.
It is so beautiful! That is it. Vicki you are doing a fantastic job of sharing here
today. I was going to say the other big thing is what you are bringing home is that loving
Godůthere are two people out there: those who are wanting to please men and those who
are wanting to please God. If you can get those two things down, then you can break
free. You can break free here. You can overcome. Because it is truly one of the biggest blocks
to ever being able to be set free is doing it for men. Even if the man is yourself. Doing
it for man. God is going to bring us all to a point to be tested. Have you done this for
me or have you done this for yourself? If you have done this for men, then you have
received your reward. It is over. Your reward is on earth. Fine. But we are living for a
better day. We are living for a better day. And speaking of thatůtonightůit is a good
segueů that we are celebrating as you might have heard from some of the things that have
been said over the last couple of weeks. We are celebrating All Saints’ Day today and
we are protesting this holiday of celebration of the occult and witches and sorcerers and
all of that even though it may seem lighthearted to you. It is just one more thing that God
said not to do. We are going to have tonight starting at sixůplease join us. Please join
us in a very different evening and if you get a chance maybe to go back and watch – we
can put it on RFTV – our Remnant stance on Halloween. We are reestablishing and restoring
and reinstating All Saints’ Day. It starts at twilight of course. The Jewish day startsůthe
calendar starts at twilight. So it is really November first come sundown tonight. So we
are going to have some prayer and some words but then also a concert and some song and
fellowship tonight. Come join us! You too can learn all this and join in with aůyou
do not have a fellowship to me if everybody is pretending. We are pretending that nothing
is there we are pretending thatůand why are you pretending? You are pretending so that
you can do what you are worshiping and that is get the praise of man. That is why they
think we are crazy. They think we are crazy because we do not care about the praise of
man but just the praise of God. Smooth it over. Come on! Smooth it over! Why are youůyou
are causing this persecution upon yourself. You are really not. But persecution comes
if you love God first. That is where all these martyrs -All Saints’ Day – celebration of
these martyrs who had loved God above the praises of man and so they were burned at
the stake. That is how it goes. Candace, do you have any more announcements?
There is a beautifulůthere are a couple of articles on RFNews. There is a website called
www.remnantnews.com that there is some otherůabout our beliefsůRemnant Fellowship’s beliefs
on there about Halloween. For anybody who is traveling this direction, we have a lot
of people coming out there from Facebook coming for the Festival of Lights which is December
fifteenth. I wanted to make sure that they knew about that.
RFNews isů.and David Martin is heading up a lot of thatůit is definitely where to go
for what is going on. We are evenůit is may be a premature rumor, but you can help spread
it, that we may put an end to a lot of emails going out about what we are doing and the
news will be on RFNews so you need to make sure you bookmark that. Get it in there. There
is a picture of it right now. It shows you pretty much in detail what is going on and
what is coming. It is the source of information for those who are checking in with us.
There is also a video that has some highlights from some of a worship concert that we did
for All Saints’ Day a couple ofůtwo years ago. That is on YouTube. If anyone wants to
go on YouTube. I made the mistake yesterdayůyou have to put in rfchurch with no space to find
the channel. So you put in rfchurch with no space. It will pull up all these videos. Then
there are more videos like how Vicki testified. How their lives have changed and their families
have been healed. There are some testimony videos on there if anybody is wanting something
to watch. Something that will fill you up at night. Rfchurch but no spaceůstick it
together. How exciting was this testimony today? Was
that not amazing? That is amazing! It is! Thank God alone! Do not even give me any thanks!
I praise God alone forůHe is the one thatůyou cried out to Him and Heůthis ministry is
His ministry and I have nothing to do with it other than trying to get whatever I can
from Him. He is the author. We are simply scribes or whatever you want to call it. We
are typewriters or something. Praise God for the restoration of you, your husband, your
child, all the finances, your health, your just all of it has come back with no apparent
– right now – consequences of any of that and that isů.How many years were you in all
that? The anonymous programs?
No, I just mean from thirteen years old toů To thirty.
To thirty. And then how many years have you been out? Since Weigh Down?
Since Weigh Down it has been six years since I have been applying the Weigh Down principles.
Okay. So six years of totally free. So praise God for that! Yay! And it can be yours too!
So until next week remember it is God through Christ that helps you to overcome. Have a
great day! We will see you tonight! Praise God! Thank you so much!